I can’t erase from my memory the last time that I saw you. On saturday night you appeared on my door, wearing your white jeans and a pink shirt, I thought “why does he use so tight his clothes? it is not uncomfortable?” but you looked stunning .. I introduced you to my family , the only part of my family that you didn’t knew yet. We were talking and helping my aunt with her computer almost everynight, then I got cold and you came inside with me. We watched “Inception” but it was so boring to me, you could note that and proposed me go for a walk. 2 a.m. and we started to walked, I was shaking because the cold, and you hugged me. We walked like that for a long time, I could feel your warm, your strong arms around me, I felt safe, I felt loved. Then you said to me “I wanna marry you and grow up together” you promised me that I will be the first and the last woman in your life, you promised  love me no matter what, you promised me not give up ever , even if the things got hard. Then a shooting star iluminated our sky and you say to me “make a wish”. I wished to love you until my last breath, and still together for a long time. When I opened my eyes you were looking at me, and I realized that I really loved you, that everything that I wanted.. you had it, I felt more in love with you than ever, you looked so perfect, so peaceful, full of love.. You completed me, you filled my heart. I really loved you.. We kept walking and we stoped near the entry of the neighborhood. I sat on the street and you did the same. You lied on me and while you caressed me, we kept staring the stars.. I gave you one, you had all the stars in the sky, but you choose a dark one, without light. I don’t think that giving you a star was enough, you deserve the whole sky, and if I could give it to you, I’ve doing without thinking about. We came back home and I was so sure that it was the most incredible night that we spent together, just for walk a half an hour, but everything that you said to me.. it will be in my mind forever. You went home, but before we sealed our love with a kiss.. the last one, the best one. Now that I’m thinking.. I miss you, I need you with me and it kills me that you give up on us, and for different reasons we are not together. You made me grow up and I learned a lot of things with you. Actually, we grew up TOGETHER, we learned together, we fell down, we got up, we cried, we laughed, we made love.. all together and I’m thankful to God for knowing you, for put you in my way, and thanks you for made my life better, for made me smile everyday, for tough me how to love, for being the only reason that I had to get up everyday with the strength enough to face the day, Thanks you for supported me, every bad choise that I made, every terrible things that I said and did, and I’m sorry for not being that girlfriend that you needed, the one who put herself in first place all the time, and didn’t think about how her actions would hurt you.. I'm completely sorry for hurted you, at that point that you got tired of me, that you give up. I know that I love you, I really do, and I will for a long time,  I hope our ways get together someday, and then I would be the best girl for the best man.. Thank you for loving me, and made me better. I will miss you every step of the way..

 

 

I love you, more than yesterday less than tomorrow.. always yours.

We spent one year and six months, eighteen months, five hungred and sixtyeight days of our lifes together. Thats a lie. We were four months apart. It was impossible not fight, we always had something bad to say to each other. You hurted me a lot, and I did the same bullshit to you. Now that I don’t have you, I realized of all the pain that I caused to you, and I’m sorry, I really do.. Because you may have your bad things, maybe you screwed me over a lot of times but what I did to you . there’s no comparation. Altought you suported me, and you never left me alone. If I suffered it was because I diserved it. Not now, because now I’m fine, but I had the worst times of my life when I was apart from you. But as you say “Everything returns” I paid my price.

I remember that night. I wasn’t waiting for anything or anyone, but there you were. In a white jeans and a tight black t-shirt. You catched my atention for the first time. I knew you, but I’ve never looked at you as that night. Anyway, it was just a thought but then I invited you to dance with me just like friends, but I couldn’t help what happened with me, you just made me fly in your arms.. I didn’t want to look into your eyes ‘cause I knew that I would be lost in them , but I dared and I saw that look and then.. everything happened in a second. I escaped from you with the excuse that I was tired, and I went to sit away from you, but I couldn’t stop watching you, now dancing with my friend, you were so beautiful, and it confused me because in those times I was so alone, nobody showed interested on me, but you changed that view. My friend came and sat next to me, and she told me so excited that you liked her, and she told me your story. You were boyfriend and girlfriend in the past, before me, and apparently the feelings didnt go away for her. I thought “oh, thats ok. He didn’t like me anyway” Then you sat right next to us and began to say things like “Hey, give me a kiss” My friend ignored her feelings and insisted that I should kiss you, but I didnt want to. You didnt resign yourself but I wast pretty sure of what I wanted, and in that time I wanted you to go. but later than night I catched myself thinking of you. What was happened with me?.

I still was hurted by the past, and I didnt want any kind of problems with anybody. So I dumped my crazy feelings for you and moved on. Yeah, after a day. My friend realized that I was interested on you, so she told me “It’s ok. I won’t be in your way, you look cute together” Should I to trust in her words? Or she just told me that to being a good friend?, I didnt knew it, I didnt knew her, I didnt knew you.

The Days gone by and I still thought of you. I had to, because we were in the same class, and even if I tried with all my strength I couldn’t stop watching you, You came one day and said to me “I have to take your eyes off, they don’t let me pray” i think that I understood that day, because now I really don’t. The fact is that every day my love for you became bigger and bigger. We started to talk every night by webcam, I remember that everyday that I was talking to you, I found new things that I liked from you. So there I was, falling in love with you..